PROLOGUE

"A letter to Emma"

Tuesday 7th October 2008

Dear Emma,



Well this is it, the thing that I have been dreading, since I first realized that you and your perfect beauty had completely consumed my heart and soul.



I could write pages and pages about how amazing you are, how much it will hurt everyday when you are not there to hold and how my heart will forever beat slightly differently after you. I could write about how you restored my faith in love and how you mended a heart broken from empty relationships. I could write about how much I wish there was some way that we could be together. I could write about the crippling pain I feel when I realize that the chances I find someone, who comes close to you are slim to none. I could write about all these things and more, that will ultimately make me hurt even more as I write and I will be damned if that is the way I am going to leave this story.





So, instead I am going to write about all the things that will make me smile. The memories, that will fill me with gladness that I even found you at all, because these memories are the things that will ultimately keep you and me alive. This is just a short list of all the amazing memories that fill me with happiness, when I am reminded of you.



I’ll remember the way you always said “oh god” at one of my ridiculous jokes and how you’d always say it with the biggest smile. God I loved that!



I’ll remember the way your hair always tickled my face, as we fell asleep together and how you’d move it out of the way but that just made me want to move closer.



I’ll remember the week after I kissed you for the first time. I swear to god I thought I was going insane, because all I could do was think of you. I couldn’t get you out of my head. I kept on hoping someone would ask me about you just so that I could tell them how amazing you are.



I’ll remember the first time you said, “I love you” not as a response to me saying it first, that’s when I knew you really did.



I’ll remember the way you always slept on the left side of the bed. I don’t remember you ever saying you rather that side, but that’s the way we always slept. I loved it because I always knew I just had to look left and there you’d be.



I’ll remember how you would always wear my clothes in the morning. They were always much too big for you but you would cuddle up so tight in them. You were so comfortably beautiful in the morning.



I’ll remember all these things and they will make me smile every time I do.

I refuse to be sad about this. You are the best thing that ever happened to me and how can that be a bad thing? I love you Emma and maybe someday the love you once had for me will win out.



Shane

P.S. I have enclosed a song I wrote for you, "My Sunset Sky". I hope it's not the last song our love inspires.